"what are sigur ros like?" "...........well they're real, honest musicians i guess"

thOmbles me contemplating the moth eaten nets on the trampoline.

thOm has duplicates for identity fraud reasons and as protection against fan girls at premiers me and Laurath had a great day/night/day together.

she brings out the best of me.

the me that I used to be like before everything exploded as dramatically as a Sigur Ros song.

i also cannot stress how thankful i am of the friends at school who really seem to care about me, it means so much to me to have radiohead cakes and an endless supply of yorkie bars to have friends in the 'real world' opposed to tumblr that i know i can rely on 100% unlike the friends i thought were friends.

lots of strikes............

i feel so much more postive at the moment

i think it's because i've been out more and been around more people (+1)

it sounds really pessimistic but i know from experience that this positivity doesn't ever last a great length of time

i mean i don't like pre meditating so i'll try not to think about what's going to happen next

but i know, i just know

i should really be focusing on the fact that i have an exam in seven days time.. and another one in nine days time and another one in fourteen days time etc etc

but in actual fact all i can think about is getting insanely drunk with laura on thursday night and going to camden with georgia and hopefully seeing her at the weekend and just all of that thonniness

urgh seriously, nothing else in life matters as much as these things

but see SEE I CAN'T BE THAT BAD

coming to think of it i think i need to start chilling about my exams

i mean take biology for instance, i don't really give a shit about that and as for music as i understand it i've already got a C so i don't really care what happens on that front

english literature is definitely the one i'm most scared about, i think i need to do a lot of work on learning those poems and maybe doing some to kill a mockingbird questions and possibly go in to see my english teacher for some revision

urgh chemistry i would love to do well in because at the moment i'm set for an A/A* which is just ridiculous considering how shit i am at that subject, so i'd love to revise loads for that and achieve either of those grades

physics.. well physics.. hahahahhahaha i really don't care

maths isn't til june but i will hopefully start flicking over some of the mathswatch stuff

and history is a piece of piss

BUT remember rachel, you still have a lot of unit 4 to finish for business studies!!!!!!!!!! just remembered that, that's not too bad though, i can have it finished in a couple of days, hopefully!!!!!!

so yes, i'm not too fussed about any of it

it's not like i'm applying myself academically anymore in terms of higher education and careers

and it's all about the a-levels ultimately even if i do change my mind on the academic front

ahhhh everything feels a little bit on the up

earlier wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, i mean it was sufficiently awkward but i came to the conclusion that no matter how much i'd like it to be, you can't expect everyone to say the right thing about stuff

plus talking to laura and knowing that i'm seeing her again soon helps

my room has the potent smell of paint about it, but paint that's gone off.. which is just horrible and eggy.

ahhhhhhh, i think now is the time for a bug's life