i should really be focusing on the fact that i have an exam in seven days time.. and another one in nine days time and another one in fourteen days time etc etc

but in actual fact all i can think about is getting insanely drunk with laura on thursday night and going to camden with georgia and hopefully seeing her at the weekend and just all of that thonniness

urgh seriously, nothing else in life matters as much as these things

but see SEE I CAN'T BE THAT BAD

coming to think of it i think i need to start chilling about my exams

i mean take biology for instance, i don't really give a shit about that and as for music as i understand it i've already got a C so i don't really care what happens on that front

english literature is definitely the one i'm most scared about, i think i need to do a lot of work on learning those poems and maybe doing some to kill a mockingbird questions and possibly go in to see my english teacher for some revision

urgh chemistry i would love to do well in because at the moment i'm set for an A/A* which is just ridiculous considering how shit i am at that subject, so i'd love to revise loads for that and achieve either of those grades

physics.. well physics.. hahahahhahaha i really don't care

maths isn't til june but i will hopefully start flicking over some of the mathswatch stuff

and history is a piece of piss

BUT remember rachel, you still have a lot of unit 4 to finish for business studies!!!!!!!!!! just remembered that, that's not too bad though, i can have it finished in a couple of days, hopefully!!!!!!

so yes, i'm not too fussed about any of it

it's not like i'm applying myself academically anymore in terms of higher education and careers

and it's all about the a-levels ultimately even if i do change my mind on the academic front

ahhhh everything feels a little bit on the up

earlier wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, i mean it was sufficiently awkward but i came to the conclusion that no matter how much i'd like it to be, you can't expect everyone to say the right thing about stuff

plus talking to laura and knowing that i'm seeing her again soon helps

my room has the potent smell of paint about it, but paint that's gone off.. which is just horrible and eggy.

ahhhhhhh, i think now is the time for a bug's life