blackberry's have really shit battery. i bet a strawberry has better battery.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my desktop is looking well good man

i love mr yorke in a blue hoodie.

i just love scotch mist in general, it's fucking GOOD man

so i guess we can say it's offically the last week of school, yes?

it's irrelevant because i'm not going in

well for the most part anyway

i reckoner i'll go in for the weird fishes/arpeggi assembly but that's probably about it

i'm really scared that i'll skip divided my exams. at this point i just really don't get the point in showing up for them. there's loads of reasons for it obviously, there has to be, but i just don't think it's worth it.

i

don't want to do my exams

and

i definitely don't want to go to college

and i almost certainly

don't want to be here anymore

the only reason i haven't exploded at the moment is because i'm on my own and i haven't spoken to anyone for about 2 days irl, or since i saw laura.

fuck my life, i have to go to a gig tomorrow

and words cannot describe how much i don't want to go

i'm going to feel shit the entire time because all i'll be thinking about you is the fact that i've sacrificed my feelings to not hurt other peoples once again and everyone else is obviously more important than me.

plus if there's some stupid idioteque in the crowd it'll probably result in a punch up at a wedding or something

arghaghrghrghgrhgrhgrhaghaghgaargh

i'm so fed up of being on my own

because everything's just numb

and i know that if i had contact with a real life person i'd just breakdown completely as soon as i mentioned anything about anything

so it's like at the moment, it's just all inside my head, patiently waiting for an oppurtunity to run wildly out of control and lash out

~

i painted one wall white

and the black strip is done

and i pencilled out the 'keep calm and listen to radiohead'

but now i need to find a stencil of the bear for the top of the strip

apart from that though i don't even know where to begin doing the stanley artwork

it's so intricate and i am so not

luckily a lot of it is just wavy lines, so that shouldn't be too difficult to do....

i leave you with this vegetable for thought

when i go to the big chill festival this year on the saturday, if thOm doesn't do a surprise set i'm going to go fucking ape shit and shut that place down

in true kanye west style which is ironic considering i only got tickets for him

this was before i realised that burial and four tet were there... which almost definitely means that thOm will be there, right?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!!!

here's a picture of thOm at the big chill last year

he's wearing the same jacket as when i met him

the same shirt as haiti

and that hat as lotus flower

thOm likes recycling things