I hope you find someone as monotonous and relentlessly dull as you and you are happy together forever, living your completely stolid, yet probably quaint but nonetheless repetitive and uninteresting lives. I really do hope that. Because there's no possible way for anyone else to be with you.
They say that opposites attract but I'm here to tell you that they most certainly do not. I'm sorry but they don't. You pretend that they do because that's what society expects you to believe, but in reality, there is nothing more joyful and rewarding in a relationship than being with someone just like you. Of whom you have heaps and heaps in common with and you can understand everything about each other to a tee because you're so completely on the same wave length and never wavering. Trying to understand someone who talks and acts and feels as though they're from a different planet just adds more work to falsely fake caring about them because ultimately you'll never truly get them and nor will you wish to, it'll just be an expectation that you feel is compulsory for your relationship to survive.
I don't think you are particularly aware of what love is... I'm not sure I am either, not completely, but the love I feel for certain people and places and things feels certain to me. You just seemed an experiment. I never believed a kind word I had to say to you, I just felt the need to say it regardless of what my head and heart were both telling me.
That's when you know someone is really not for you. When it's not just in your heart which tells you it's not worth it, but in your head too!; when your two normally contradictory consciences actually agree! That's when you know something for certain. And I am certain that I will never ever, nor did I, nor do I love you or care about you or wish to see you or speak to you or talk about you ever again. This is my closure, you are completely emotionally cut off from now on because I say so and I want to delete you in my mind so I can replace you with truly wonderful, glorious things which I honestly love.
It wasn't particularly nice knowing you, I hope to forget the memories.
Yours impossibly, Rachel.
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