and now i feel horrifically selfishly happy

from what was an elated mood has just gone downhill

and i'm not saying i'm premencious well actually... fucking of course i am goiertngo'eirgine'

on the way home i started to feel uneasy and annoyed again and agitated the more i thought about everything

and now i get home click on tumblr and looks like life has taken it's toll for the worse on one of our friends

please god say she's OK and that she hasn't harmed herself in anyway,

i know it's extremely easy to criticise and say "oh but you never really knew them" "you never met them" "they're on the other side of the world" etc etc but that isn't going to stop me caring. what little i spoke to her she was an amazing, hilarious girl, and if anything has happened to her i just... i can't explain

please don't leave sheyrl, radiohead and thomblr need you <3